This is a much needed (and probably much awaited) journal for my absence for a lot of months away from commissions and well deviantart in general.
I have no excuse like medical reasons or financial reasons why I haven't been around and on, same with why I haven't been following through with commissioners. All I can really say is I just haven't been happy with my art. When I look back at commissions of sketches, already finished work or halfway done art, I just get a sense of disappointment in myself which is ended up causing me on dreading drawing art with my tablet and just putting it off continuously to the point where suddenly three, four months have passed.
I feel like every artist hits this hard spot in their lifetime and basically questions why they draw in the first place.
It's kind of like I'm very reluctant on drawing at the moment because I feel like it's not going to turn out as I had hoped, which is pretty disheartening. Though I know I have to fight this head on, I just feel pretty ashamed of myself for not doing it sooner and making those who've commissioned me wait for so long.
It's weird cause I'm not really one to admit things like this so openly, but I feel like it's needed because of my long absence. So I'm going to try fighting this and hopefully get back to drawing frequently soon.
If I owe you any art at all, please send me a note! And I'm sorry I haven't done this sooner, thanks for reading if you've gotten this far!